Chapter 2

It’s been a month…… one month since she and Kris got married and one month since the last time she saw Drake. She should’ve listened to him when he told her it was not convenient to sleep with him, that it was going to make things harder for her.  He was right, it’s been one month and she hasn’t been able to make love with Kris.  He had tried again this morning, placing small kisses on her neck but she pulled away.  She felt bad, really bad, Kris was the perfect husband: caring, sweet and he loved her. But he wasn’t Aubrey.  Everytime he tried to be with her, she couldn’t forget Drake’s kisses and the way he had made love to her, it was engraved in her mind and in her heart.  Disgusted, she was disgusted with herself thinking about a man that wasn’t her husband.

"Nicki your mom called, she said she’ll call back later to talk to you" She looked at Kris who was standing at the door

"Oh… Ok…. Did she said what for?"

Kris looked at her the same way he had been doing it the past 2 weeks: with so much hurt in his eyes.

"No she didn’t" and with that he walked out.

She knew he was dissapointed, he was guy and he definitely had his needs but she couldn’t do it, it was like her body refused to be with him, it tensed up and her stomach twirled and she was not able to control it. She followed him into the living room of their big, expensive apartment and stared at him for a while… He turned to face her with tears in his eyes, tears that were making her heart burn and making her feel like a bitch.

"Is it me Nicki ? Did I do something wrong? Please tell m.." he was interrupted by her

"No! Of course it’s not you! You are perfect Kris! Is me I… I’m so sorry I.. I can’t" tears were now falling down her cheeks

"Do you want to?" he looked straight into her gray eyes before pressing his forehead with hers “I know you don’t love me Onika, not how I would like you to love me, but please tell me that you at least feel something…please"

"I do love you Kris…but.." he backed away and looked at her with tear filled eyes

"… But you don’t love me as much as you love him" it was a statement not a question “who is he?"

"Kris…" she looked away from him and stared at her bare feet trying to find the right words to say, she couldn’t tell him the truth, she couldn’t tell him she was in love with her cousin.

"Don’t say anything Nicki, I promised I was not going to ask you that but I want you to remember what you promised. You told me you were gonna try your best to make this relationship work." he lifted her head so she could look at his eyes “Do it, try to forget him, try to feel something for me" he leaned in and place a small kiss in her lips.

"I will"

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The ringing of his cellphone woke him up, he glanced at the clock: 7:30am.  Who was calling him this early?

"Hello?"

"Drake?! Where the hell are you? You said you were going to be here at 7:00am" he heard his brother yelling at him but it took a minute before he remembered what he was talking about “Dad is pissed! Get your ass over here if you want to live"

"Oh God! I’m sorry Dylan, tell dad I’ll be there in 20 minutes" he hung up and started to get ready.  His dad was leaving town for a couple of months and he wanted to spend the day with them.

10 minutes later he was driving to his dad’s house.  The rest of the day he watched his dad and brother laugh and hang out, he was not in the mood for this.  It’s been a month since he saw her, she had called but he ignored it, it was better for both of them.  He sat outside and drank…. A lot.

"Drake" he heard his dad voice rigth behind him “Dylan is going to stay, you should probably stay here tonight too, you’re too drunk to drive" his dad looked at him with worried eyes as he searched for the keys of his car.

"It’s okay dad I’m used to it… Have been doing it for a whole month" he couldn’t help but sound bitter.

His dad frowned he knew exactly his reasons “Please tell me you’re over her… Drake… She’s your cousin for God’s sake!!"

"Bullshit!! You and I both know that’s bullshit!" he was yelling by now as tears were starting to gather up in his eyes.

"Shut up, Drake! Do you regret your decision now? Do you want her to suffer?" the frustration in his dad’s voice was evident.

Drake looked down and shook his head no. His dad moved closer to him and gave him a hug

"I’m sorry, this is how is supposed to be.  I’m truly sorry"

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"I know Granny… yes I do love you guys but I don’t think it’s a good idea.  I’m staying with a friend" he glanced over at the sleeping form on the bed.

"Yes Grandma, a female… No she’s not my girlfriend yet" he smiled, his grandparents were the best. “I’ll think about it ok? I love you too"

He hung up, placed his cellphone on the night stand and scooted to the bed, the bed he had come familiar with in the last week.  Sliding his hands around the tiny waist of his current lover, he pressed his lips against the back of her head. She stirred and turned to face him.

"Good morning Rih" He smiled

"Hi Drake" she replied with a raspy voice.

"Can I ask you for a favor?"

"Sure"

"Do you want to come with me to my grandparents house for a week?" he looked at her and studied her puzzle look for a second “They want to spend time with me, it’s been a while since I’ve been there but I dont want to alone so please come with me?" he gave her a pleading look

She smiled and pressed her lips against his softly “Since you asked so nicely I’ll go" another kiss “I’m gonna go change"

She stood up and went into the bathroom, he rolled on his back and stared at the ceiling for a couple of seconds.  He was not sure this was a good idea but his grandparents missed him and, to tell the truth, he missed them too.  They had a big, beautiful house with an inside pool.  He used to go there every month, well him and…Her.  He shook the memory out, he was determined to have a good time.

Beep. He grabbed his phone and looked at it. ‘1 new message: Nika’. Delete.

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"Oh come on Nicki, it’ll be fun! You can go see your grandparents and spend some time with them and I could go visit some friends while we’re there" he pulled her close to him “It’s only a week"

She groaned.  She definitely missed her grandparents, but a week in THAT house was like going to a battlefield and she didn’t want to jeopardize her ‘relationship’ with Kris. Things were starting to get better between them, they hadn’t exactly ‘been together’ yet but they had made progress and spending a whole week in her grandparents house was not going to help her.  Too many memories, but she couldn’t tell that to Kris so she forced a smile

"Ok, ok we’ll go" she went to their closet and grabbed a suitcase “Start packing, we leave tomorrow"

He stood still staring at the suitcase “Aren’t you going to help me?! I have no idea of what to pack"

She laughed “I’ll be right back. Must go to the bathroom" she blew him a kiss, grabbed her phone and headed to the bathroom.  She went through her contacts, it wasn’t hard to find him. Aubrey.

‘Are u okay? It’s being a long time and you haven’t even texted me. I really hope we can still be friends… Like always. Miss u.’

Send.

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He stood on the door of the room looking at the women in front of him.  His eyes traveled from her red hair to her curves and back to her eyes.  Without a doubt Rihanna was a beautiful girl, and while they had been hooking up for the past week it didn’t mean anything.  She was lonely and he had a broken heart but they both knew they would never get more serious than that.

"Oh my God Drake! The house is amazing and  this room is so huge and awesome! Is it yours?"

Drake smiled at the beautiful redhead and stepped inside.  Everything remained the same way as ever.

"Almost.  I used to come here every weekend."

"I can see why.  I mean, your grandparents are sweet and the house is really pretty"

He smiled again but didn’t answer.  They had arrived an hour ago, his grandparents met Rihanna and they talked for a while but since it was already late they decided to go to sleep and continue in the morning.

"I’m going to take a shower, don’t miss me too much" she gave him a wink before grabbing her bag and heading to the bathroom “Emm… Where’s the bathroom?"

He laughed “It’s right across".  As she left he looked around what used to be ‘his’ room.  The walls were a light shade of blue on top and the bottom was a dark brown.  The ceiling still had the glow-in-the-dark stars he and Nicki had attached to it, even if they were a little old for them, they loved to lay in the bed and stare at them.  The window had the most amazing view of the back garden, where the whole family used to have dinner together.  His eyes focused on the picture hanging on the wall, it was of him and Nicki 4 years ago; she was 16 and he was 18, she was wearing the black and red dress she used for her sweet sixteen that day and he had on a tuxedo, they were staring at each other and laughing, his grandfather took the picture.  That night they shared their first kiss and it had been Nicki’s idea to hang it there as a reminder of what they shared but nobody knew.  This room had been witness of the most amazing memories of him and Nicki: their first kiss, the first time they said ‘I love you’ to each other, their first fight, he looked at the bed, and of course the first time they made love.  He immediatly shook out the image and headed to place the bags in the walk-in closet.  The minute he entered, he regretted his decision, his mind flew back to the first not so innocent kiss he shared with Nicki rigth there in that closet.

*Flashback* (Drake’s POV)

As I looked around the closet searching for my shirt I felt her hugging me from behind, she placed her hands on my bare chest and rested her head on my back.

"Hey"

"Hey Nika" I glanced at the black and red watch that she gave me for my birthday “It’s already 12:03 am so happy 17 birthday!" I turned around, she kept her hands around me, and I did the same bringing her closer to me and giving a her a sweet kiss on the lips.  She smirked. Oh oh.

"I want my gift now,  which is supposed to be double by the way"

"Double?" I faked ignorance, but I sure knew what she was talking about.  One year. A whole year since all this started.

She punched me. “Did you forget?" 

"Auch! Of course I didn’t! But I’m saving that gift for later"

"Ok, but I still want you to do something for me and you have to promise me you wont say no" she blushed. This can’t be good.

"Nic I can’t promise anything. Tell me" she unwrapped her arms from around me and turned away.

"Iwantyoutokissme" 

"Huh?!" she turned to face me again and looked straight into my eyes.  I could feel myself getting nervous.

"I want you to kiss me" Oh that was easy. “But I dont want a sweet kiss, I want-" she looked down before looking back at me with bright red cheeks “I want you to REALLY kiss me"

"Nick-" she cut me off.

"We’ve been together for a year Aubrey, you always give me sweet, soft kisses and as much as I love them, I want the real thing now. I want more of you." Her eyes wondered to my lips and I gulped.  I loved her there was no doubt but I knew this was wrong, beyond wrong.

"Nicki we can’t.  Our grandparents are just down the hall and they could walk in any minute, you know we have to be careful with this and-" I was cut off once again by her.  She walked closer to me.

"They are already sleeping and I locked the door when I walked in, I know we have to be careful.  Now are you going to keep making up excuses or are you going to shut up and grant my wish?" I looked down at her as she lifted her arms and wrapped them around my neck.  A second later her lips are pressed against mine, moving slowly. 

I snaped out of my shock and kissed her back, my hands immediately went to her hips and rested there. She pulled back and talked to me with that sweet, sexy voice of hers

"Make-out with me Aubrey" and I lost it.  My lips crashed against hers and my hands moved to the small of her back.  I felt her tongue begging for entrance to my mouth and, for the first time in a year, I allowed it parting my lips and meeting her tongue with mine.  My left hand somehow was now tangled in her hair as I pulled her closer to deepen the kiss and the other one was still on her back bringing her lower body  close to me.  She moaned against my lips. This was so wrong, but it felt so good.  I felt her hand going up and down my back before she pulled away and stared at me.  Her hands went to my chest and started touching and caressing it. I lowered my face to meet her lips again, but she stepped back turning away from me. 

"Nic are you ok?" my voice was shallow. I saw her reach for the hem of her shirt and, turning to face me again, she pulled it up until it was completly out.  Stunning, she looked beautiful with her black bra, messy hair from me running my hands through it, swollen lips from the mind-blowing kiss we had shared minutes ago and those amazing eyes had that special glow on them. She blushed and walked towards me.

"Touch me" 

"What?! No, Onika I’m not going to do that! Are you out of your mind?" she just smiled, took both of my hands in hers and placed them on her stomach. I felt her shiver at the contact.

"It was not a petition Aubrey, it was an order." I wanted to pull away, this was going too far, but she kept her hands on top of mine, guiding them up and up and up. I saw her close her eyes before placing my hands on her bra-covered breast. She whimpered when I started cupping them and my lips crashed against hers once again, tongues met, hands explored and bodies got hotter. 

"Drake is Nicki there with you?" the sleepy, manly voice of my grandfather interrupted us and we flew apart, Nicki  grabbed her shirt from the floor and got dressed. 

"Yes, Grandpa, she’s here….. we are…. celebrating her birthday" I looked at her and we bursted out laughing. Busted.

*End Of Flashback* 

He had to get out of this room.  Fast